But I don't feel like it right now.
I could tell you about another parent that I recently roomed with and her thoughts on RNY and my thoughts on her thoughts. I could tell you about the amazingly crazy/busy past few days I had at work and home this week and how I ate during these times. I could tell you about struggles I still have with self image and how I'm not sure how that will change. I could tell you about something. But I'm too tired to put it all down in words.
So until I get back to a routine in blogging, know this... Others have gone through what you're going through... hang in there and be encouraged that you're not alone! You are loved. You are beautiful in the eyes of your Creator. You are made with His DNA and that's pretty stinkin' awesome! You are Fearfully and Wonderfully Made!
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"I praise you [God] because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well." ~Psalm 139:14
A-Weigh We Go
Thursday, January 23, 2014
Sunday, January 12, 2014
Hanging Up The Jersey
It's officially time to put away my new Colts jersey. As Andrew Luck himself said, "the Patriots deserved to win." (Ugh, that stings even typing it!!)
No, this isn't a football blog... you're at the right place. But what a disappointing end to a really good season! My beloved Colts couldn't stop the run, we couldn't catch important passes and Luck had 4 interceptions! This is a young team and I'm sure we've got many good years ahead of us, but blah!
All that brings you to my jersey reality check. See, the last jersey I had no longer fit. Not even as a night shirt! CME, being the awesome hubby that he his, got me a new one for Christmas! The reality check is in the pictures below...first, me in my new jersey...the last two pictures are of me in 2008 at a Colts game. The Manning jersey was a Men's XXXL...and was snug in places. My new jersey is a Ladies' Medium! The reality check of where I've come from happened when I compared the pictures side by side.
Old pictures are hard to look at. They represent times when I was trapped. Trapped in a life that I had created. Trapped in the lies that I let the world tell me about who I was. Trapped in moments of constant pain - either physical or emotional. But they are also reminders of how God has delivered me from all of that! How He has been so faithful to guide me step by step and to heal my wounded heart.
So even as I hang up the jersey for another year, I can be happy! Thank you Jesus for your unending faithfulness! I am blessed!
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"I praise you [God] because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well." ~Psalm 139:14
No, this isn't a football blog... you're at the right place. But what a disappointing end to a really good season! My beloved Colts couldn't stop the run, we couldn't catch important passes and Luck had 4 interceptions! This is a young team and I'm sure we've got many good years ahead of us, but blah!
All that brings you to my jersey reality check. See, the last jersey I had no longer fit. Not even as a night shirt! CME, being the awesome hubby that he his, got me a new one for Christmas! The reality check is in the pictures below...first, me in my new jersey...the last two pictures are of me in 2008 at a Colts game. The Manning jersey was a Men's XXXL...and was snug in places. My new jersey is a Ladies' Medium! The reality check of where I've come from happened when I compared the pictures side by side.
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| McAfee is awesome! |
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| Thumbs up for Manning! |
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| Colts fan, first and foremost; Manning fan second...so now Go Broncos! |
So even as I hang up the jersey for another year, I can be happy! Thank you Jesus for your unending faithfulness! I am blessed!
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"I praise you [God] because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well." ~Psalm 139:14
Wednesday, January 1, 2014
Hello 2014
I'm not a resolution type person. I understand the thought behind it, but I never really made resolutions of my own. I don't know if its because it was something else that I didn't want to fail at or if I just wasn't motivated enough to care. Regardless, resolutions aren't for me.
What is for me? Goals. Life changes. Healthy living. Yeah, I know I could make those "resolutions" but I think I'll stick with the no resolution mindset. So what are my goals for 2014? In no particular order of importance.
This one started today: to participate in one 5k (or more) event each month of 2014. (I need to start researching and planning those!) Today I began working toward that goal! The boys and I ran/walked in the New Year's Day 5K. It was chilly...it was hilly (fair grounds vs street running)...and yet, we all did better than we have in past! (I've not edited my Jingle Bell Run entry after the sponsors re-calculated the speeds based on the shortened route...not nearly as good as I thought initially!) My oldest son set his own goal of completing in less than 30 minutes. (He's not run a 5K in...well, hmmm... well over a year!) He met that goal by finishing in 29:58 - a pace of 9:37! My youngest son, who really struggled during the Jingle Bell Run, did MUCH better this time. Really! His pace was 13:23 and he finished in 41:34. I'd have to go back and look at his last results (after the re-calculation) but I KNOW it's a significant improvement both physically and his attitude during the whole thing. He even thanked me when we got home. Why? "For making me do this!" I consider that an NSV!! My goal of a 12:00 pace didn't happen. BUT I did my best pace of 13:03 - finishing in 40:30! Hey, I didn't say I was fast...I said I'm moving. And though I was 12/12 in my age category, I am perfectly fine with that! This girl is out there...moving...and setting an example of my kids! The boys placed 2nd and 3rd in their age division and each even got a trophy. So hats off to them for starting 2014 with a bang!
Other goals? The boys and I are starting a Scripture memory study. I know Bible stories, but to quote Scripture? I'm weak in that area. I don't want to be weak when it comes to the Truth. I want to be strong and truly grounded in the Word. So after I'm done here, we will be starting the Scripture Memory Made Easy study tool. I'm really excited about this goal! Another good thing to do with my boys!
Another goal... not to over use the word "love". May sound silly, but I have a habit of saying "I love...(coffee, PB2, shrimp, snow, Colts football, etc.)" way too much. But love is so special (See my "You are Loved" post) that when I use it in excess, I think it waters down what love really is. My mother-in-law said something this past week that I'm going to try to remember... "Don't love things, love people." Ilove really like that!
Other goals could be considered resolutions I suppose... be in the Word daily (Scripture memory will help with this, but I mean truly dive in and read/listen/learn.); be more intentional about exercise...whatever that looks like for me; complain (about work) less; be more intentional in inviting the International Students over; enjoy each day and give God the glory He deserves!
So though I'm not a resolutions person, I hope these goals keep me focused and continue to help me be a healthy (physically, spiritually, and emotionally) example for my family. I look forward to what God has planned for me in the next 12 months and I say, "Here I am Lord...ready for what You have in store for me! Thank you for bringing me to this place in my life! Thank you for carrying me when I was weak and healing this lost and broken soul!!"
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"I praise you [God] because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well." ~Psalm 139:14
What is for me? Goals. Life changes. Healthy living. Yeah, I know I could make those "resolutions" but I think I'll stick with the no resolution mindset. So what are my goals for 2014? In no particular order of importance.
This one started today: to participate in one 5k (or more) event each month of 2014. (I need to start researching and planning those!) Today I began working toward that goal! The boys and I ran/walked in the New Year's Day 5K. It was chilly...it was hilly (fair grounds vs street running)...and yet, we all did better than we have in past! (I've not edited my Jingle Bell Run entry after the sponsors re-calculated the speeds based on the shortened route...not nearly as good as I thought initially!) My oldest son set his own goal of completing in less than 30 minutes. (He's not run a 5K in...well, hmmm... well over a year!) He met that goal by finishing in 29:58 - a pace of 9:37! My youngest son, who really struggled during the Jingle Bell Run, did MUCH better this time. Really! His pace was 13:23 and he finished in 41:34. I'd have to go back and look at his last results (after the re-calculation) but I KNOW it's a significant improvement both physically and his attitude during the whole thing. He even thanked me when we got home. Why? "For making me do this!" I consider that an NSV!! My goal of a 12:00 pace didn't happen. BUT I did my best pace of 13:03 - finishing in 40:30! Hey, I didn't say I was fast...I said I'm moving. And though I was 12/12 in my age category, I am perfectly fine with that! This girl is out there...moving...and setting an example of my kids! The boys placed 2nd and 3rd in their age division and each even got a trophy. So hats off to them for starting 2014 with a bang!
Other goals? The boys and I are starting a Scripture memory study. I know Bible stories, but to quote Scripture? I'm weak in that area. I don't want to be weak when it comes to the Truth. I want to be strong and truly grounded in the Word. So after I'm done here, we will be starting the Scripture Memory Made Easy study tool. I'm really excited about this goal! Another good thing to do with my boys!
Another goal... not to over use the word "love". May sound silly, but I have a habit of saying "I love...(coffee, PB2, shrimp, snow, Colts football, etc.)" way too much. But love is so special (See my "You are Loved" post) that when I use it in excess, I think it waters down what love really is. My mother-in-law said something this past week that I'm going to try to remember... "Don't love things, love people." I
Other goals could be considered resolutions I suppose... be in the Word daily (Scripture memory will help with this, but I mean truly dive in and read/listen/learn.); be more intentional about exercise...whatever that looks like for me; complain (about work) less; be more intentional in inviting the International Students over; enjoy each day and give God the glory He deserves!
So though I'm not a resolutions person, I hope these goals keep me focused and continue to help me be a healthy (physically, spiritually, and emotionally) example for my family. I look forward to what God has planned for me in the next 12 months and I say, "Here I am Lord...ready for what You have in store for me! Thank you for bringing me to this place in my life! Thank you for carrying me when I was weak and healing this lost and broken soul!!"
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| Ready for our first 5K of 2014! |
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| Way to go boys!!! |
"I praise you [God] because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well." ~Psalm 139:14
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