By that "definition" I. am. insane.
I've been logging my food intake this week and realized today that I have already fallen back into the pattern of behavior that helped me "fail" all the other attempts at losing weight. I have not made small sustainable changes. I did it like I've always done it. I wrote it down. I didn't pay attention to the labels. I didn't weigh/measure/count with any accuracy at all. And though I like the app for my phone, I'm still guessing at some of nutritional value. The app did help me realize that even if I were "dieting" I am not getting enough calories in a day (making me feel famished at night), but am averaging high on carbs, average on fats, and way (WAY) low on protein. I know it's early in this, and I'm glad that I am already seeing the careless pattern, but yeesh! I'm not sure I know how to make small sustainable changes.
I recognized a "trigger" situation (oh gosh, I can't believe I'm about to admit this publicly!!): I am BAD about eating when under stress (work stuff) when no one is around. I found myself rummaging through my cabinets and fridge multiple times the other night. Yes, I was hungry (results of not getting in all the calories I should), and yes I chose "wisely"(?), comparatively speaking, when I did finally make up my mind. But I can't tell you how many different foods I picked up and put back before I decided on a bowl of cereal - and by bowl, I mean I don't know how much I had...because why? I don't measure! Since I can't avoid the trigger of being under stress AND being home alone some nights, I've got to figure out another way to deal with it. A dear friend of mine sent me an encouraging email today about losing the 17# - it said "pray when you're hungry." I'm going to do that! But I don't want to pray for me. I want to pray for those who are hungry on a daily/weekly basis. Hopefully that will help me deal with that trigger. (Thanks, friend, for that idea!!!)
So what have I learned from 4 days of journaling my food intake?
- I need a food scale.
- I need to follow my checklist more closely. Especially: plan ahead and read food labels.
- I am not getting in all my water. I'm sure that is another reason to cut back on coffee.
- I am not on a diet. I need to figure out what small sustainable changes look like for me.
No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it. ~ Hebrews 12:11
"I praise you [God] because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well." ~Psalm 139:14